It's been a LONG TIME

So it's been FOREVER since I have blogged.  Ever since my accident last year I have been in a FUNK!!!  Literally just two days ago I finally FEEL ALIVE.  I FEEL PURE JOY once again in my life and I am grateful for that.  So I thought I would post what I just posted on FB.  I don't know how often I will be blogging, but I know last year when I was writing it was so therapeutic for me.  So time will tell how often I write on here, but I am writing this for me because I am worth it.

I am so excited for summer and for the NEWNESS of life, my life, my childrens' lives. Two days ago the kdis and I started 4 journals.  A WANT JOURNAL, A GRATITUDE JOURNAL, A BOOKS READ JOURNAL, and lastly a HEALTH JOURNAL.

I really want to teach myself and my children what and how to live a happy joyous life and for me, these four aspects of our lives are some of the most important things.  It is a self esteem builder, a I AM AMAZING builder, a I AM LOVED builder and the list goes on and on and on.  So here is what we are doing for each journal.  We sit as a family each night and write in our journals.  These are mandatory family meetings we are doing nightly.  Here’s a break down of each journal and my reasoning behind it.

WANT JOURNAL:

I think so many people know what they don’t want in life, but do you really know what you want?  Do you really have a VISION for your deepest desires?  So for this journal I am having the kids write 3 WANTS a day.  They are dating each entry and then numbering them.  So by the end of the year they should have 1068 entries into their journals.  The rules for this are they are so DREAM THEIR BIGGEST DREAMS and write them down.  So for example, Tyler’s first day of entries looked like this.  I asked them not to repeat their wants for at least 3 months.  So this will really make them THINK and PONDER what they want out of their lives.

6/1/11

1.       IMSA

2.       Healthy and Muscular Body

3.       YALE

Those are things he wants to accomplish in his life.  Now Gracie, my 9 year old wrote this.

1.       A new puppy

2.       Great America passes

3.       Read better

I have just LOVED reading and listening to what they want.  It’s so great to just have these deep conversations with the kids.  I LOVE IT!!

GRATITUDE JOURNAL:

Again, we are dating the entry and then writing 3 things we are grateful for.  Now for this journal I have asked the kids to never repeat.  At least not for the first 3 years.  I know as they get older and look back on these journals they will see their growth and their passions.  My kids are 13,12 and 9.  How exciting that they are learning these things now!

BOOKS I HAVE READ JOURNAL:

For this journal, as soon as they finish a book they write the title, author and  date they finished reading it.  This is going to be an EXCELLENT source for them as well as me to remember what they have read and to feel a great sense of accomplishment for their reading.  My two oldest are AVID READERS and I am hopeful that Grace will become an avid reader.  I used to be, and one of my WANTS is to get back to reading.

HEALTH JOURNAL:

For this journal we are going to be tracking our exercise and food intake for each day.  I KNOW this will not only encourage a healthier lifestyle but we will all take ownership for our bodies and hopefully gain even more self esteem and self worth for all that we are accomplishing.  Also in this journal we will be journaling any illness we might have on a particular day.  I think this information will be invaluable in the future.  My entire household has gone to a HEALTHY, FRESH lifestyle. 

For the first time in MANY MONTHS, I FEEL ALIVE!!!  I FEEL LOVED!!!  I FEEL UNSTOPPABLE!!!  I FEEL WORTHY OF ALL GOOD THINGS!!!  Much love to you all!  I hope you have an incredible summer with those you love and create eternal memories that you will carry with you into the next life.  Much love!

January 2nd - A new day, A new Vision

"You have sole ownership of your VISION.  And the Universe will give you what you want within your VISION.  What happens with most people is that they muddy their vision with "Reality".  Their vision becomes full of not only what they want but what everybody else thinks about what they want, too.  Your work is to clarify and purify your vision so that the vibration that you are offering can then be answered."  Abraham Hicks~

Yes, this is it!  Create within your mind a VISION of who you are.  You are the creator of your own life, of your own world.  You create every situation.  It is  your choice how you react to things and situations in your life.  It's always been your choice.  Society would make you think otherwise.  You are intelligent.  You are beautiful.  You are powerful.  So create a VISION of your perfect life.  How do you look?  How do you FEEL?  What kind of house are you living in?  What is your mate like?  What are your children like?  Be specific!  EnVISION it.  Create it!  Live it!  You can have and be whatever you choose in life.  It truly is your choice.  No matter what the circumstances you are in right now, you have a choice.  Believe me, for years,  I was the victim.  The victim of 39 operations.  The victim of a stroke.  The victim of loss.  The victim of depression.  The victim of child abuse.  I WAS the classic victim.  Was I happy through all that, Yes, I had my moments.  But the VICTIM in me allowed myself to get up to over 300 lbs.  Why?  Because that is what I chose to do.  I never loved myself.  In fact I loathed myself.  No more though!  I am now putting myself first after 40 years, I deserve it.  I am teaching my kids at their young age that the MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE IS TO LOVE YOURSELF.  No matter what!  YOU MATTER!  I MATTER!  I AM LOVED.  I AM WORTHY OF ALL GOOD THINGS.

I have a vision for my life.  I have a vision for how I want to look.  I have a vision of the slim body that I desire. I have a vision of the lifestyle I want to lead.  I have a vision of the vacations I want to take.  I have a vision of the people I want to help.  I have a vision of all that I am becoming.  And let me tell you, it is perfect in every way.  Why do ask?  Because in my world, everything and everyone is perfect.

My heart is full.  I am filled with Joy.  I FEEL LOVED.  I FEEL HAPPINESS.  Today I will say goodbye to by dear friend Marj and her children as they continue to miss their husband and father Joe.  I know they will live on.  As time goes by, the hurt and sadness will decrease.  They will continue with their lives and they will find Joy once again.   I am taking my kids to Universal Studios tonight and then tomorrow we will go into the park and enjoy a day in the Harry Potter World.  We are so excited to be able to have this opportunity.

Much love to you all!

Happy New Year 2011

Wow!  It's been a while since I posted last.  Well all that is about to change.  I am going to post as often as possible.  I am currently in Florida right now.  My friend's husband passed away on December 26th.  I've known Marj since I was 10 years old.  In fact, we have been close friends for the last 30 years.  Oh boy, I am aging myself. :)

So Marj called me on December 26th and told me her husband Joe wasn't going to make it.  I told her I was going to pack up and come.  And I did just that.  I packed my 3 kids and my mom came with and we left to drive down to Florida.  Joe passed about an hour into our drive. :(  My heart goes out to Marj and her kids, Brandon, Vincent & Emily.  Funerals are so surreal for me.  I personally am so moved by all the emotions that go on during a funeral.  So many memories.  So many happy times.  So many stories are told.  It's really a beautiful occasion.  It's many a very emotional week down here in Florida.  You never want to see those you love be sad or suffer and I've seen both this week.

Tomorrow we are leaving Port St. Lucie and driving up to Orlando.  I've decided to take the kids and stay at Universal Studios tomorrow night and then Monday we will go to Universal to see the Harry Potter park.  The weather is so severe right now to try and drive home so I thought it would be a nice way to end a very emotional trip.  My kids LOVED Joe.  This was their second BIG funeral for 2010, the first being my Grandma Belle who passed on February 16th.  So it's time to have some fun and make some FUN memories from this trip.  

I look forward to getting home and starting MY FRESH LIFE NOW routine.  I'm so excited for this.  This is SO BIG for me to do.  It is my intent to help inspire millions of people.  To teach them how I am creating the lifestyle that I want to live by.  To create a healthy, happy, and vibrant life.  It's been an amazing journey and roller coaster that I have been on in 2010.  Many, Many UPS and a few downs, but all in all I have come to realize the most important thing in life is to Love Myself.  To FEEL WORTHY.  To KNOW that I am worthy of all good things.  To KNOW that I am loved.  To KNOW that I deserve to be fit and healthy.  I deserve to reach my goal size of a size 10.  I am going to do it.  2011 is my year.  This is it.  No excuses.  I WILL DO IT!!!

Life is just so amazing.  There are so many wonderful people in this world and I hope to meet as many people as I can so that I might share my story with them.  Share my unconditional love for them.  Share all that I have learned through my years of self loathing, self hate.  To share what happens when you take that one little step of loving yourself.  It is a wonderful thing and I look forward to it.

When I return home later this week and begin MY FRESH LIFE NOW routine you will notice my blog changing to a new layout.  Very similar to how it was at the end of 2010.  Each day I will share with you a little message about Body, Mind and Spirit.  I will share with you a positive affirmation, an exercise routine, the food I am consuming, and an uplifting message or story.  I know this blog will continue to heal my spirit and give me the confidence I need to succeed in my journey.

I am also going to be starting a MY FRESH LIFE NOW support group.  We will have a live support group as well as an online group.  My goal is to take My Fresh Life Now to the world.  I want My Fresh Life Now to be known around the world.  I pray that I will make a difference to those who are struggling with their weight and their body image.  It's an exciting endeavor and I'm up for the challenge of it.

I am filled with joy! I am loved.  I am worthy of all that is good.  I am an incredible women with so many talents.  I am a great mother.  I am a great wife.  I am in awe of the power that we have within ourselves to create change for ourselves.  I am blessed to have 3 incredible children whom I love with all that I am.  I am blessed to work with some amazing people.  I am blessed to have some beautiful women in my life that I call FRIENDS.  I FEEL so much energy and so much power from within.  I am loved!!!!

Much love to you all on this New Years Day, 2011!!!!!!!!!!!   Happy New Year!!!!!!!!

I have the perfect body

I know it's been awhile.  I'm doing great!  I will not get on a scale again however for a very long time.  I just don't believe in them.  As long as I feel good, My clothes continue to sag on me.  I feel energized and strong, that's all that matters to me.  Here are some incredible affirmations to read and re read every day.  Much love to you all!


Where I am right now is my creation too and it's perfect!
Right now, this second I'm creating my perfect body!
I love who and what I see in the mirror! 
I can feel and see myself fitting into my perfect size clothes!
I thrill at the prospect of the slenderizing year ahead of me! 
I am patient with myself as I think my body to it's perfection! 
I deserve a trim, beautiful, fit, and healthy body! 
Releasing weight is easy and effortless for me, I just let it go! 
My body is a beautiful temple that houses my spirit!  
I am wonderful just the way I am!
My womanly figure is a gift, I love and embrace it now! 
I love, love, love my body! 
The mirror is my friend, it reminds me to appreciate today and anticipate tomorrow!
I am divinely inspired to my perfect state of health, fitness and beauty! 
I love my body; every feature, every organ, every cell! 
I'm growing more attractive every day! 
I am healthy, vibrant and sexy now and only becoming more so! 
My new reality includes my ideal weight and shape! 
I am a perfect physical expression of Source!
My body is getting slimmer with every new hour!
I deserve a healthy, fit, trim and sexy body!
I know weight is only a number, vitality is my natural state in which I live! 
I am connected to THE flow of health and fitness!
I create my own reality!   Life is what I make it!
I have a clear and exciting vision for my life and my focus is creating it now! 
I am comfortable in my body because I know it's my creation! 
I am beautiful just as I am! 
I embrace what I see today as I delightfully anticipate what will be tomorrow! 
I accept and love my body as it is and know my thoughts are creating it anew!
My amazing imagination is creating my beautiful body now!
It is so easy for me to release weight, the extra weight just falls off my body! 
I focus on the essence, the feeling of my desires and I always attract them! 
My body is beautiful, healthy, and sexy . . . now! 
I am perfect exactly the way I am! 
I deeply love and honor even the features I would change most about my body! 
I am growing more slender every day! 
Being fit, trim and healthy is magical and easy for me! 
I love this journey of health and fitness I'm on, I celebrate Life!
I love myself exactly as I am! 
I'm ready now to be thin, vibrant and full of energy! 
Divine life flows through every cell in my body! 
My positive thoughts right now are creating the perfect body I desire! 
I am getting healthier, happier and more energetic every day! 
Allowing my perfect body and weight to manifest is fun! 
I breathe in universal love and breath out any thoughts that don't uplift me! 
Everyday I get more control of my perfect body consciousness! 
In my mind I am now slim, healthy and attractive! 
My body is an energetic, efficient, fat burning, muscle building organism!
I am a Spiritual being, I'm not bound by a scale or a mirror!  Nothing binds me!
I am a magnet for health, beauty, joy and perfection in all ways!
Every wonderful self-loving thought I think attracts my perfect body to me!

Day ???

I have no idea what day I'm in right now.  This whole car accident through me for a loop.  I'm still on the road to recovery.  I won't get back into the gym probably until next week.  Even then it will just be for cardio.  I won't lift for another week after that.  My body NEEDS this time to heal and rest and I am listening to it.


Words of Inspiration
Where I am right now is my creation too and it's perfect!
Right now, this second I'm creating my perfect body!
I love who and what I see in the mirror! 
I can feel and see myself fitting into my perfect size clothes!
I thrill at the prospect of the slenderizing year ahead of me! 
I am patient with myself as I think my body to it's perfection! 
I deserve a trim, beautiful, fit, and healthy body! 
Releasing weight is easy and effortless for me, I just let it go! 
My body is a beautiful temple that houses my spirit!  
I am wonderful just the way I am!
My womanly figure is a gift, I love and embrace it now! 
I love, love, love my body! 
The mirror is my friend, it reminds me to appreciate today and anticipate tomorrow!
I am divinely inspired to my perfect state of health, fitness and beauty! 
I love my body; every feature, every organ, every cell! 
I'm growing more attractive every day! 
I am healthy, vibrant and sexy now and only becoming more so! 
My new reality includes my ideal weight and shape! 
I am a perfect physical expression of Source!
My body is getting slimmer with every new hour!
I deserve a healthy, fit, trim and sexy body!
I know weight is only a number, vitality is my natural state in which I live! 
I am connected to THE flow of health and fitness!
I create my own reality!   Life is what I make it!
I have a clear and exciting vision for my life and my focus is creating it now! 
I am comfortable in my body because I know it's my creation! 
I am beautiful just as I am! 
I embrace what I see today as I delightfully anticipate what will be tomorrow! 
I accept and love my body as it is and know my thoughts are creating it anew!
My amazing imagination is creating my beautiful body now!
It is so easy for me to release weight, the extra weight just falls off my body! 
I focus on the essence, the feeling of my desires and I always attract them! 
My body is beautiful, healthy, and sexy . . . now! 
I am perfect exactly the way I am! 
I deeply love and honor even the features I would change most about my body! 
I am growing more slender every day! 
Being fit, trim and healthy is magical and easy for me! 
I love this journey of health and fitness I'm on, I celebrate Life!
I love myself exactly as I am! 
I'm ready now to be thin, vibrant and full of energy! 
Divine life flows through every cell in my body! 
My positive thoughts right now are creating the perfect body I desire! 
I am getting healthier, happier and more energetic every day! 
Allowing my perfect body and weight to manifest is fun! 
I breathe in universal love and breath out any thoughts that don't uplift me! 
Everyday I get more control of my perfect body consciousness! 
In my mind I am now slim, healthy and attractive! 
My body is an energetic, efficient, fat burning, muscle building organism!
I am a Spiritual being, I'm not bound by a scale or a mirror!  Nothing binds me!
I am a magnet for health, beauty, joy and perfection in all ways!
Every wonderful self-loving thought I think attracts my perfect body to me!


Positive Affirmation
I am PERFECTION!!!

I'm 40 today!!!!!!!! HOORAY!!!!!!!!! 81 pounds down!!!

Drum Roll Please……..  For my official 40 year birthday weigh in this morning, I weighed 219.  So I have now lost 81 pounds since 2/22.  Hooray for me!!!  I still have a long way to go, but I am HAPPY for that loss.  Especially since I won’t be able to workout for the next week at least until I heal from my car accident.  I am overwhelmed and blessed by all the amazing birthday wishes.  Thank you for all your blessing that you continually give me each day.  I feel so much love in my life.  I am blessed to know each of you, to feel your love, to feel your joy, to feel your happiness.  As I turn 40 today, I realize the blessings that have been bestowed upon me these last 40 years.  It’s a beautiful day to reflect on my life and all that I have experienced thus far.  What have I experienced you ask?  Let me share with you some of those high lights.  I was raised by the best mom ever, she was single, worked 3 jobs to take care of my brother and I.  We were brought up in a happy home.  I went to college in Idaho. I lived and worked in Utah. I went on a mission to Honduras. I got married when I was 27. I had 3 of the most incredible children. I have lived through 39 operations in my life.  I have been blessed to work with so many incredible people. I have traveled the world. I have experienced great loss in my life of dear loved ones. I have created and owned a company about early detection where I was given the opportunity to travel the country and meet women from around the world. I have had depression. I have had illness. I allowed myself to get up to 300 lbs. I was blessed to win an incredible contest in January with The Fresh Diet.  I was blessed to start my weight loss journey 2 days after I buried my dear Grandma Belle. I have been blessed to eat healthy all these months. I have been blessed to exercise with one of the greatest trainers. I have been blessed to meet some of the most amazing people throughout the world via facebook. I have been blessed to start a new company now and to create an amazing non profit and charitable organization. I have been blessed with some of the most amazing friends I could ever imagine. I have been blessed with the best family. I have been blessed to wake up each day and just SMILE. I have been blessed to FEEL pure joy and happiness I AM BLESSED.  So as I think about my life, I find great comfort and happiness in my eternal memories.  With my birthday I am making a WISH.  It is a WISH for each of you.  I WISH for you to be HAPPY and to be filled with JOY.  I WISH for you to know that you are loved, to know that you are worthy of all good things.  I WISH for you to enjoy each day, cherish the little moments in life, to laugh, to smile to feel the spirit that is within you.  I WISH for you to enjoy nature and to draw the incredible energy from every living thing.  I WISH for you to be successful at whatever you do.  I WISH for you to be healthy and energized.  I WISH for you to create eternal memories with those you love.   I WISH for you to KNOW that you are not alone, that there is a purpose for your life, that you are a worthy individual and that you are loved.  I WISH for you PEACE, JOY, HAPPINESS, COMFORT, INSPIRATION, and most of all I WISH FOR YOU LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!  Much love to you all.  Thank you for blessing my life this day.

Day 206 - 9 days to go

9 days until I turn 40 and weigh in.  Oh my goodness!!!  These last few weeks have been the busiest, happiest, most joyful weeks of my life.  I am starting up a new company and it's just magical!  I can't wait to share it with the world.  We hope the website goes live in a few weeks and then I can talk all about it.  All I can say is that the creative process is miraculous and just unbelievable. I am so blessed in my life to be able to start up this corporation and hopefully share my vision, share my love, share my joy with everyone.  

My best friend Sara is coming in from Vegas next Friday with her little girl and I can't wait to have them here.  It's such a blessing to have friends that are eternal.  I am so grateful for all that i have been given.  Much love to you all this beautiful Fall day.

Words of Inspiration

"Most of you are afraid of your body. Your body feels like something that might trick you. It might get run over, or it might make the wrong decision, or it might die too early, or it might get a disease in it, or it might do something, after all, it has all kinds of mysteries. You can't look into your body. You can't see metabolism. You can't see what's happening with the cells. You don't really understand your body. And your body frightens you in most cases.

We would like to help you to know that your body is oh, so well meaning. Your body is so well orchestrated. You see, your body is trillions of cells that are vibrationally interacting with Source Energy. And if left to their own without a lot of static in your vibration, your body would only thrive. In other words, the basis of your body is one of true and utter thriving. It has no reason to frighten you. It is the greatest evidence of Well-being that exists anywhere in your physical experience. It is an extraordinary mechanism that's come together from great deliberate intent from so many Non-Physical and physical creators. And every one of you who stands in your body, continues to enhance the experience of the physical body. This is an evolution of a species that is extraordinary.

Your bodies are not to be feared. Your bodies are to be revered. Your bodies are to be applauded. Your bodies are to be maybe even amazed at. But they are never to be feared. Your bodies are not vulnerable. They're not fragile. They are resilient. They are flexible. You have the ability to come into alignment again and again and again, and if anyone in the Universe understands that, it's the cells of your body.

Befriending your body is the only way we know of coming to understand that your body is resilient and that it knows what to do, and that it will be whatever you ask it to be. But you have to ask it to be that in a place of nonresistance. It's the most significant information that we have ever expressed relative to your physical body and food. You must love your body, and then lovingly give it the food. And when you love your body and lovingly give it the food, it matters not what food you give it." ~Abraham Hicks~

Positive Affirmation

I have the most perfect body and it is amazing!

Training with Joe

So this last week I only got into the gym twice. :(:(:(  I am going to make an effort to do better next week.  The start up of this company has me busy from sun up to sun down and then some.

Food

I have been blessed to continue eating healthy with The Fresh Diet.  They are such a blessing to my life.