Grace's 10th Birthday Party

Wow!  It's been about a year since the last time I wrote on my blog.  So much has been going on in my life this last year.  I'll have to update all that at a later date.  The main reason for my blogging today is to add pictures from Grace's birthday party.  I've been crafting like crazy lately and I had a few people message me from FB saying they wanted to PIN my pics, but FB doesn't allow that.  So here's the pictures.  I had so much fun creating these items for Grace's party.  If you want to know how to do anything just message me.

It's been a LONG TIME

So it's been FOREVER since I have blogged.  Ever since my accident last year I have been in a FUNK!!!  Literally just two days ago I finally FEEL ALIVE.  I FEEL PURE JOY once again in my life and I am grateful for that.  So I thought I would post what I just posted on FB.  I don't know how often I will be blogging, but I know last year when I was writing it was so therapeutic for me.  So time will tell how often I write on here, but I am writing this for me because I am worth it.

I am so excited for summer and for the NEWNESS of life, my life, my childrens' lives. Two days ago the kdis and I started 4 journals.  A WANT JOURNAL, A GRATITUDE JOURNAL, A BOOKS READ JOURNAL, and lastly a HEALTH JOURNAL.

I really want to teach myself and my children what and how to live a happy joyous life and for me, these four aspects of our lives are some of the most important things.  It is a self esteem builder, a I AM AMAZING builder, a I AM LOVED builder and the list goes on and on and on.  So here is what we are doing for each journal.  We sit as a family each night and write in our journals.  These are mandatory family meetings we are doing nightly.  Here’s a break down of each journal and my reasoning behind it.

WANT JOURNAL:

I think so many people know what they don’t want in life, but do you really know what you want?  Do you really have a VISION for your deepest desires?  So for this journal I am having the kids write 3 WANTS a day.  They are dating each entry and then numbering them.  So by the end of the year they should have 1068 entries into their journals.  The rules for this are they are so DREAM THEIR BIGGEST DREAMS and write them down.  So for example, Tyler’s first day of entries looked like this.  I asked them not to repeat their wants for at least 3 months.  So this will really make them THINK and PONDER what they want out of their lives.

6/1/11

1.       IMSA

2.       Healthy and Muscular Body

3.       YALE

Those are things he wants to accomplish in his life.  Now Gracie, my 9 year old wrote this.

1.       A new puppy

2.       Great America passes

3.       Read better

I have just LOVED reading and listening to what they want.  It’s so great to just have these deep conversations with the kids.  I LOVE IT!!

GRATITUDE JOURNAL:

Again, we are dating the entry and then writing 3 things we are grateful for.  Now for this journal I have asked the kids to never repeat.  At least not for the first 3 years.  I know as they get older and look back on these journals they will see their growth and their passions.  My kids are 13,12 and 9.  How exciting that they are learning these things now!

BOOKS I HAVE READ JOURNAL:

For this journal, as soon as they finish a book they write the title, author and  date they finished reading it.  This is going to be an EXCELLENT source for them as well as me to remember what they have read and to feel a great sense of accomplishment for their reading.  My two oldest are AVID READERS and I am hopeful that Grace will become an avid reader.  I used to be, and one of my WANTS is to get back to reading.

HEALTH JOURNAL:

For this journal we are going to be tracking our exercise and food intake for each day.  I KNOW this will not only encourage a healthier lifestyle but we will all take ownership for our bodies and hopefully gain even more self esteem and self worth for all that we are accomplishing.  Also in this journal we will be journaling any illness we might have on a particular day.  I think this information will be invaluable in the future.  My entire household has gone to a HEALTHY, FRESH lifestyle. 

For the first time in MANY MONTHS, I FEEL ALIVE!!!  I FEEL LOVED!!!  I FEEL UNSTOPPABLE!!!  I FEEL WORTHY OF ALL GOOD THINGS!!!  Much love to you all!  I hope you have an incredible summer with those you love and create eternal memories that you will carry with you into the next life.  Much love!

January 2nd - A new day, A new Vision

"You have sole ownership of your VISION.  And the Universe will give you what you want within your VISION.  What happens with most people is that they muddy their vision with "Reality".  Their vision becomes full of not only what they want but what everybody else thinks about what they want, too.  Your work is to clarify and purify your vision so that the vibration that you are offering can then be answered."  Abraham Hicks~

Yes, this is it!  Create within your mind a VISION of who you are.  You are the creator of your own life, of your own world.  You create every situation.  It is  your choice how you react to things and situations in your life.  It's always been your choice.  Society would make you think otherwise.  You are intelligent.  You are beautiful.  You are powerful.  So create a VISION of your perfect life.  How do you look?  How do you FEEL?  What kind of house are you living in?  What is your mate like?  What are your children like?  Be specific!  EnVISION it.  Create it!  Live it!  You can have and be whatever you choose in life.  It truly is your choice.  No matter what the circumstances you are in right now, you have a choice.  Believe me, for years,  I was the victim.  The victim of 39 operations.  The victim of a stroke.  The victim of loss.  The victim of depression.  The victim of child abuse.  I WAS the classic victim.  Was I happy through all that, Yes, I had my moments.  But the VICTIM in me allowed myself to get up to over 300 lbs.  Why?  Because that is what I chose to do.  I never loved myself.  In fact I loathed myself.  No more though!  I am now putting myself first after 40 years, I deserve it.  I am teaching my kids at their young age that the MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE IS TO LOVE YOURSELF.  No matter what!  YOU MATTER!  I MATTER!  I AM LOVED.  I AM WORTHY OF ALL GOOD THINGS.

I have a vision for my life.  I have a vision for how I want to look.  I have a vision of the slim body that I desire. I have a vision of the lifestyle I want to lead.  I have a vision of the vacations I want to take.  I have a vision of the people I want to help.  I have a vision of all that I am becoming.  And let me tell you, it is perfect in every way.  Why do ask?  Because in my world, everything and everyone is perfect.

My heart is full.  I am filled with Joy.  I FEEL LOVED.  I FEEL HAPPINESS.  Today I will say goodbye to by dear friend Marj and her children as they continue to miss their husband and father Joe.  I know they will live on.  As time goes by, the hurt and sadness will decrease.  They will continue with their lives and they will find Joy once again.   I am taking my kids to Universal Studios tonight and then tomorrow we will go into the park and enjoy a day in the Harry Potter World.  We are so excited to be able to have this opportunity.

Much love to you all!

Happy New Year 2011

Wow!  It's been a while since I posted last.  Well all that is about to change.  I am going to post as often as possible.  I am currently in Florida right now.  My friend's husband passed away on December 26th.  I've known Marj since I was 10 years old.  In fact, we have been close friends for the last 30 years.  Oh boy, I am aging myself. :)

So Marj called me on December 26th and told me her husband Joe wasn't going to make it.  I told her I was going to pack up and come.  And I did just that.  I packed my 3 kids and my mom came with and we left to drive down to Florida.  Joe passed about an hour into our drive. :(  My heart goes out to Marj and her kids, Brandon, Vincent & Emily.  Funerals are so surreal for me.  I personally am so moved by all the emotions that go on during a funeral.  So many memories.  So many happy times.  So many stories are told.  It's really a beautiful occasion.  It's many a very emotional week down here in Florida.  You never want to see those you love be sad or suffer and I've seen both this week.

Tomorrow we are leaving Port St. Lucie and driving up to Orlando.  I've decided to take the kids and stay at Universal Studios tomorrow night and then Monday we will go to Universal to see the Harry Potter park.  The weather is so severe right now to try and drive home so I thought it would be a nice way to end a very emotional trip.  My kids LOVED Joe.  This was their second BIG funeral for 2010, the first being my Grandma Belle who passed on February 16th.  So it's time to have some fun and make some FUN memories from this trip.  

I look forward to getting home and starting MY FRESH LIFE NOW routine.  I'm so excited for this.  This is SO BIG for me to do.  It is my intent to help inspire millions of people.  To teach them how I am creating the lifestyle that I want to live by.  To create a healthy, happy, and vibrant life.  It's been an amazing journey and roller coaster that I have been on in 2010.  Many, Many UPS and a few downs, but all in all I have come to realize the most important thing in life is to Love Myself.  To FEEL WORTHY.  To KNOW that I am worthy of all good things.  To KNOW that I am loved.  To KNOW that I deserve to be fit and healthy.  I deserve to reach my goal size of a size 10.  I am going to do it.  2011 is my year.  This is it.  No excuses.  I WILL DO IT!!!

Life is just so amazing.  There are so many wonderful people in this world and I hope to meet as many people as I can so that I might share my story with them.  Share my unconditional love for them.  Share all that I have learned through my years of self loathing, self hate.  To share what happens when you take that one little step of loving yourself.  It is a wonderful thing and I look forward to it.

When I return home later this week and begin MY FRESH LIFE NOW routine you will notice my blog changing to a new layout.  Very similar to how it was at the end of 2010.  Each day I will share with you a little message about Body, Mind and Spirit.  I will share with you a positive affirmation, an exercise routine, the food I am consuming, and an uplifting message or story.  I know this blog will continue to heal my spirit and give me the confidence I need to succeed in my journey.

I am also going to be starting a MY FRESH LIFE NOW support group.  We will have a live support group as well as an online group.  My goal is to take My Fresh Life Now to the world.  I want My Fresh Life Now to be known around the world.  I pray that I will make a difference to those who are struggling with their weight and their body image.  It's an exciting endeavor and I'm up for the challenge of it.

I am filled with joy! I am loved.  I am worthy of all that is good.  I am an incredible women with so many talents.  I am a great mother.  I am a great wife.  I am in awe of the power that we have within ourselves to create change for ourselves.  I am blessed to have 3 incredible children whom I love with all that I am.  I am blessed to work with some amazing people.  I am blessed to have some beautiful women in my life that I call FRIENDS.  I FEEL so much energy and so much power from within.  I am loved!!!!

Much love to you all on this New Years Day, 2011!!!!!!!!!!!   Happy New Year!!!!!!!!